Military

Im leaving in the Army in March. The feelings that go through you everyday are so crazy..and in a way they are still amazing. I had a girlfriend when i was originally gonna go and i wanted her to marry me. We had talked and we decided when i get done with basic if things were still working we would get married. Well me and my girlfriend had the strongest relationship and we went through some of the hardest things a couple can go through. Well she decided she couldnt hang and that she wanted to be single a few weeks after i joined.  

Now I have different struggles and difficulties to overcome everyday but in a round about way it wasnt all bad.

ive finally found GOD again. Where i should have been all along. And as weird as it may sound I live more like im supposed to. Ive found to look past as many of the shallow things in life as i can and to focus on what is important to me and what will make my life better. Now losing sarah was the hardest thing that has every happen to me. But two things great came out of that. One i dont want to put her through such a dramatic series so young in her life, she is too amazing to go through that. And secondly she showed me alot about myself. I learned how to be myself again.

Of course im gonna be living Blake Shelton's Austin song for the next three years but i dont need anything in my life but to do things to better myself.

Now leaving is soo hard. it hurts everyone around you just as much as it is good. Everyone talks about how hard it is for me to leave them and how they are gonna miss me. And from my point of view it is soo much harder.I am Willingly giving up so many things to try and go somewhere in life. My life was fine i was enrolled in college i had a job and a loving family and the girl of my dreams. And I am losing them one by one and walking away from it all..

everyday I am trying to move forward and do something ive never done before.  i am meeting new people and trying to be as genuine as i can.